This started as a text to a few friends in the morning.
I sent them the following…
This video hits something deep for me.
The best men are not the ones who had it easy. They are the ones life pressed hard, and who came through with depth, steadiness, and the ability to carry weight.
Curious what this brings up for you.
The responses I got back from people are what brought about this article. So thank you again for your feedback, your time, and the experience of being with you as friends.
And if you are reading this and we do not know each other, know that I am with you. Even if it is not meant to be me who becomes your friend, or me who walks with you closely enough for us to inspire each other directly, still know this: when you become a certain kind of person, something changes.
You begin to recognize what is real more quickly. You stop needing so much performance, so much permission, so much explanation. Your life starts to carry a different weight. Your actions become more honest. Your choices become more clean. And the people who are meant to find you, learn from you, build with you, or simply be strengthened by your existence, they begin to recognize it too.
That is part of the grace of becoming. Not that everyone will understand you, but that what is real in you starts to speak for itself.
Inspired by Arnon Katz and Ash Aly.
I used to think I could figure it out ahead of time…
What kind of man I would become.
What it would look like.
What “good” even meant.
I thought if I just thought hard enough, read enough, pushed far enough, I could design it. But that was the first mistake. Because the man you become is not something you can fully imagine from where you stand. Not because it’s mystical. Because the very act of becoming changes the lens you’re using to imagine it.
There’s a reason for that. Immanuel Kant would say you are not seeing the world directly, you are seeing it through the structure of your own mind. The categories you use to judge what is “good” are already shaping what you think you’re aiming at. So when you try to design the man you’ll become, you’re designing him with the same limits you’re trying to grow beyond.
It’s like trying to see over a hill while you’re still climbing it. You can guess. You can project. But you don’t actually know what’s on the other side until you get there, and by then, you’re not the same person who was guessing. And in between, something strange happens.
Søren Kierkegaard described this as anxiety, not fear of something specific, but the dizziness of possibility. The moment where your old self no longer holds, and the new one has not formed. Most people escape it.
Not because they are weak.
Because it feels like falling.
Then you pass through a kind of nonsense
Moments where things don’t line up. Where what you thought was true starts to crack. Where your identity doesn’t quite fit anymore, but you don’t have a new one yet. It feels like anxiety at first. Like something is off. Like you’re losing your footing.
And if you’ve ever been there, you know the instinct is to get out of it as fast as possible. To explain it away. To reframe it. To land somewhere safe again. But sometimes, if you don’t run…
It flips. The tension breaks. And what felt like nonsense suddenly makes sense. Not slowly. Not step by step. All at once. And you laugh. Not because it’s funny in the normal way. Because something that used to grip you doesn’t anymore. That’s the moment people try to describe.
They call it insight.
They call it awakening.
They call it clarity.
There’s something almost violent about that shift. Friedrich Nietzsche pointed to this moment, where tension collapses and something new emerges. Where what once felt heavy becomes light, and laughter replaces weight. But he also warned, not all transformations lead upward. Some people don’t become stronger. They become better at hiding from themselves.
I used to think that was the whole story. That if you could just move from anxiety to laughter, from confusion to coherence, you were on the right path.
But that’s not actually true.
John Stuart Mill would push back here. Because if everything is just interpretation, then nothing can be judged. So, not all outcomes are equal. Some ways of living produce more flourishing, more stability, more capacity for others. So even if meaning is shaped, consequences still sort what works from what doesn’t.
I’ve seen the other version too. Where people laugh things off that they should take seriously. Where they “reframe” something instead of facing it. Where they build a story that protects them from ever being wrong. It looks the same on the surface.
Same confidence.
Same ease.
Same sense that “it all makes sense now.”
But underneath, nothing has actually changed. They’re just better at explaining things away. That’s when I started to realize something I couldn’t ignore. Not every resolution is truth.
This is where it becomes practical. Mahatma Gandhi lived this out in a simple way, truth is not what you say, it is what you can stand in without contradiction. If your life does not align with your words, reality will expose it over time.
The Road To Damascus
Turns out some are just escapes. And if you’re honest, you can feel the difference. One holds up when life pushes back. The other requires constant adjustment to keep the story intact. That’s where the real line is.
Not in what you can imagine.
Not in how good it sounds.
Not even in how it feels in the moment.
But in what survives contact with reality. I don’t think there’s a “best man” you can define ahead of time. But I do think there are men who become more capable of carrying truth, pressure, and responsibility without breaking or distorting. And you don’t recognize them by what they say. You recognize them by what doesn’t need to be explained away.
So now, when I hit that edge, that space where things don’t make sense yet, I don’t rush it the same way. I watch it. I let it break. And when it flips, when the laughter comes, I don’t assume it’s insight. I test it.
Because at some point, this stops being philosophy.
It becomes a filter.
A way of seeing who is actually grounded and who is just articulate.
Does this actually make me more accurate?
More responsible?
More able to handle what’s real?
Or did I just find a cleaner way to avoid it?
I call this the shuffle which can be applied to building any group like sifting sand.
Because the man I’m becoming is still something I can’t fully imagine. But I can tell when I’m moving toward him. And when I’m just telling myself a better story.
If you want this badly keep reading and apply the tactical steps below.
Takeaways
- You cannot fully imagine who you will become, growth changes the lens itself
- Anxiety is often the signal that your current identity is breaking
- Laughter can signal insight, but it can also signal avoidance
- Not all narratives are equal, outcomes still sort them
- Truth is what holds under pressure without needing constant reinterpretation
The Shuffle (Practical Filter)
Use this on yourself and others.
1. Prediction Test
- Does this way of thinking improve my ability to predict what will happen?
- Or do I keep getting surprised and explaining it away?
2. Consequence Test
- What happens when this belief meets reality?
- Does it produce better results, or recurring friction?
3. Stability Test
- Does this hold under pressure?
- Or does it collapse when things get hard?
4. Reframe Check
- Am I updating my model, or just protecting it?
- How often do I need to reinterpret events to stay “right”?
5. External Signal Check
- If the answer is “nothing,” this is likely an illusion
- What evidence would prove me wrong?
Group Application (Sifting Sand)
When building a group, team, or network:
- Do not select based on how people explain themselves
- Watch how they behave under uncertainty and pressure
- Look for people whose actions reduce the need for explanation over time
- Remove those who require constant narrative maintenance to justify outcomes
Simple rule:
Keep the ones who get clearer under pressure.
Filter out the ones who get more complex.
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